To My Friends, Delima

It is nearly a year we were apart. I am sure that everyone is wondering, "how is ilman now? Is he already becoming masculine?"

You guys know the answer, "Yes"

Guys, it is Friday when I am writing this. A special day when suddenly I 'see' your faces. I am still remembering the boys were playing "stress ball" and the girls were studying so hard. Sometimes, we-boys-do care about the girls study time. Girls, forgive us.

Still fresh in my mind is the time when Wan Syafiqah drank the "susu laici". She vomited because of that. People behind this agenda were Ezzati and me. If I am not mistaken, Rudy was involved too.

Still not to forget is our hardworking Ammar. He sacrificed lots of his time for us and we never know about it. Thank you dude.

While, Masitah, Aminurul Amirah and Ira were studying hard to pass with flying colours. These girls were hardly seen to join the boys playing "stress ball" compared to Wan Syafiqah and Ezzati.

Another girl is Asyilla and is the most freak person! It is because, she tried to seduce Fikri with her voice. Thank goodness Fikri void her very well. ~~~~Rozai.......~~~~

There are "man-made-like machines" in our class. They are Mokhzani, Syed and Muhaimin. They are too intelligent that sometimes I called them, machines... They slept and played in the class like others, but their attention after class were crucial. We always read about bright students in papers said "Paying much attention during class is helpful", but to these guys, they are exceptional. They "pay attention+some sleep during class is straight As SPM". :D

Anas and Amir are the trouble-makers. They always disturbed Faris anywhere and anytime. ( :p ) They disturbed Hakim too as they like to eat pelam cicah at Hakim's dorm. Anas and Amir were so understanding persons that they sometimes understood your irritating jokes.

Zul is so mystical to me. His style and dressing are so different from the others. It is believed that Wan Syafiqah and Ezzati were falling in love with his lips. There is one person that quite wierdo, Huzaifah. He looked like a late 80s movie star. Huzaifah was born in France. :D

Syazwan and Syafandie are book lovers. Syazwan likes comic books while Syafandie likes love novels. When others want to borrow books, these guys are the main source. However, Syazwan's comic book is the most wanted. The word, "second,!!" was normally heard in the class because of these two guys. :D Syafandie loves novel so much as he still can read it during the SPM trial week.

We were so great in the past and we are now still and we will be the greatest in our own future.

This entry is dedicated "To My Friends, Delima"

A Decision, Think Wisely

I received a call from HEP UiTM Puncak Alam to attend a case on my lost laptop last month and I decided to attend it.

Once in Puncak Alam, I wait in a room with other witnesses in there. Each everyone of them had their own cases which realized me that I was not the only one that day. Some with cigarette case, some 'involving-man-and-women' case and etc. Puncak Alam seems so peace and quiet once you were there, but just a few knows that there were quiet numbers of cases.

(Let "X" be the name of the thief).

"X" was called into UiTM's court as I was told so. I was talking with one of the witnesses about MUET in the room while waiting the result of my case. 30 minutes after that, a staff called me and said, "You can dismiss now, the accused admitted his fault".

As I was leaving, I met "X" in front of the room I waited. Shocked to say, he was expelled from UiTM upon his fault! His eyes was watery and reddish, clearly showed his regretful. Her body looked like he was not able to stand still, maybe still not believed of what had decided by the panel.

I was like a mute that time. Deep inside my heart, "Oh God, I forgave him already by the time he gave back my laptop on the same night he stole it. Please help him..."

Back home, I still picturing the "X"s face which hardly received his punishment. Then, "A Decision, have to Think it Wisely" I said.

Dolah; An Old Friend

Rihaz @ An and Me

Abdullah Fahmi @ Dolah

I was starring and doing nothing to my Facebook page when suddenly an old friend buzzed me.

Deep inside this heart, "oh, he still remember me". I smiled.

We had a short conversation in Yahoo! Messenger where we shared our latest updates. He is now in University of Cairo, Egypt pursuing his study in medicine. He-the green shoes one-still the same since the last time I met him. His 'tahi lalat' is still there and will be there eternally, but this time it appears more sexy with his new hair stlye; 'Hujan' I supposed.

We also talked about our old friend, Rihaz @ An. Not much we talked about, but deep inside my heart, it is enough for me to remember the last time three of us together; during our childhood.

We had a great time long ago. Still remember, Dolah and I were a good student, that we were always score number 1 or 2 in class. While An is a friend that I need the most, he was so protective, that he used his large body size to scare the others. Although sometimes three of us had a quarrel, but we never split apart.

We were great last time and we are and we will still be great. Hope you guys don't forget me.

Big Help, Lifetime Contribution

Ikmal

Ezzuddin

Muiz

Mat Le

Naim

Shahir...(no picture). Sorry my friend.

These are the go0d+bad guys of me. I will never ever know them very well if my laptop was not missing. Thanks to Allah for giving me these guys.

Back Again

as Mokhzani said in http://eskremsedap.blogspot.com/?zx=88210599c359f65c , "I am still alive."

It has been a long time I did not post stories here. I was so busy with tests, and then followed by Eid Mubarak.

Alright then, I got to go now. Got to prepare for my Physics paper tomorrow. Bye.

Rest

REST

Resolved is Physically, Understanding is Truly Valued

I just finished my physics tutorial for chapter 6 and 10. There were quiet number of questions to solve. Each questions may take sometimes. Yea, I need time to think of the exact answers.

I got a help from a website called "Cramster". This website showed me the working steps to the answers. It was helpful. It did increase my understanding.

However, I realized that I am too depending on it. So, should I stop using it? I am afraid that the understanding that I got through it, is just for that particular time.

I am Running

Life here become busier. Quizzes are every week. Test and Sem 1 final exam is just around the corner. Hopefully things get better before that days.

We are The Five Brothers

It has been two weeks I left home. Today, I decided to go back home after weeks of brain storming.

Stress and pressure are like a shadow of mine, keeps following wherever I go. So, this is the best time for me to take some rest.

Drive off Puncak Alam is a relief I suppose.

Hello outside world! Meet me, my name is Mr Some Rest, Need

"Salam Ramadhan"

I am approaching the right way. Hopefully, the past will never meet me again.

Self-Learning is Crucial

"Paying attention to lectures only without doing extra-exercises is not enough here."

I always talked about things that close related to my study here. During this foundation, I found myself spent more time on study. For me, of course I should to, to compete with these brilliant people in this foundation.

This lately, I'm learning to balance my study and happy life. Thanks to Abg Chaq for helping me. I'll try. =)

"Self-Learning is Crucial" here. Hopefully, I will perform myself to the fullest.

I Wish I can be Myself

I study days and nights. Leaving behind playing basketball in the evening. I am no longer so active than before.

Is this it? Is this causes of study to much?

I considered myself that I am an ordinary student. I need extra exercise on my subjects. So, I do lots of things for that purpose; skip playing basketball in the evening, no longer playing Call of Duty and some others.

The outcomes of my daily routine was I got 4 for Physics and Chemistry-Biology and Maths still do not get the result- It is worth for me but it is not so cool enough!

"I Wish I can be Myself" like the past time I did.

For those who read this, please lend me your hand.

Second Half

(Decoration purpose only)

This morning is like never before. So quite that I can hear the sound of ceiling fan swooshing. But, sometimes sound of bus's engine is heard.

Today I will start my new "Second Half". Hopefully, I will do my very best in order to make changes in my future life.

Thanks to Mokhzani, Amiruddin and Abg Chaq for all these.

Love to Motivate

I always said to myself that I need to improve the way of my thinking. However, it does not seems to happen yet

I thought I was good enough in something. But, after some reading, I found out that people around me are better. Precisely, my classmates are better than me although they seems so lazy and crazy.

The phrase " It is too good to be true" suddenly come out of my head. When remembered, I always said this to myself. But, honestly I do not understand what this phrase is about. (If you know, tell me)

Now, I'm working on my assignments. Hope it can finish before submission date.

I am wondering if someone can share something with me the real deal of being a man and an ordinary university student. Please.

Untouched

I arrived home at 6pm.

Today, I am enjoying my mid-semester break. After a month of brain storming in Puncak Alam, it is now the right time for me to have a short break.

On my way back home in Seri Kembangan, Mama drove to PappaRich Restaurant. Oh!, my tongue was so happy I suppose. Why say so? It has been more than a month my taste bud tasting fried rice and fried egg.

Once I reached home, my head was thinking of "What's the new you, home!?"

Wuahaha! A new Samsung HD LED Plasma TV! After this, my life at house would be better!

However....

.....

My room seems "Untouched" since the day I left it. The bed sheet, chair, guitar at the corner, those hangers, and stuffs on the table is just there! Dust seems thicken. The dullness of my room needs to be removed!

Wish

I wish for a very best result

Early In The Morning

It was so cold that time, like usual. After subuh, I had a nap.

I suddenly watch a picture of my classmates. But this time, the feeling was not the same as before.

It was a sad feeling with a smile.

The picture give me inspiration. The smile of my friends in the picture, seems so alive. Everyday, when I watched this picture, I said "I want to be like U"

"Early In The Morning" I write this entry. No one knows.

The Summary

Monday- June, 28

Fascinating lecture, but complicated subject. 4 hours after lecture-during the night-I managed to understand some, at least.

Tuesday-June 29

An hour short of Physics lecture. I realized that during the last school time, I was not really understand the Newton's Law =). That day, I did.

Wednesday-June 30

Half-way fasting. Due to a 4-hours-long lecture. I do not know how fasting and lecture relate, but the lecture suddenly made me very hungry. I had my lunch.

Thursday- July 1

Got 9.6 out of 10 for Mathematics quiz. I smiled the whole day...

Friday-July 2

Had a Mathematics quiz-functions- --_--!

Saturday-July 3

( I realize this entry becoming short at the end of it) Mom and dad came. Had a sweet chat before they gave some inspiration.

(this entry looks dull. maybe I should not do like this again.)

A "Roti Canai"

The wind blew, made the atmosphere so cold. I was awoke by it.

The light from the window caught my eyes, it was so bright.

After took a bath, I put on my T and tracksuit. Looked ordinary but comforting.

The cafe was few with people. There was just a stall opened and it seemed to become certain people's favourite here. There, served varieties of local cuisine, the breakfast type.

I saw a short man, wearing headphone while kneading a lump of dough. He was making "roti canai". I smiled. Suddenly I realized, it was so long ago I was not having my "roti canai". Then, I had one piece which cost me 80 cents. Differ from the past 9 years, it only cost 50 cent a piece.

The story of "roti canai" really make me realize that time moves so fast.

A "maggie goreng"

I was studying when Nizar text-ed me to meet his family. I was honored with that!

I met them, shaking hands and had some conversation. We talked more about our (Nizar and I) study here. Nizar's parent seems so worry if we do not perform very well, especially Nizar as their beloved son.

They kept reminding us to be good and study very well.

Nizar's family, is so loving and caring, that I feel so close with this family. They seem to accept me as part of their family too and I am glad with it.

Before they drove home at Kedah, I received some mouthwash dish from Nizar's parent.

It is "A 'maggie goreng' " and it is beside me now.

Need Air

I was climbing up a hill-high stairs. It is so high, that when I reached to the top, I breath heavily.

And of course I was sweating. While walking to my house(hostel here is a house), I was thinking of my ability to archive a distinction result. It was all because of my last lecture this morning. I nearly do not understand of the whole lecture. However, Alhamdulillah, through my effort last night, I manage to understand some.

Here(university's life), is like a battle with no enemies. You are not competing with others.

I am starting to understand something today about "effort".

For me, student here with no "effort" is called DESTRUCTION.

So, now, I "Need Air"

Cheers to This Whole Day

I am so happy to blog. Nothing else to describe my happiness and satisfaction.

The fact is, I AM VERY HAPPY....

It Is Better to be Unborn Then to Live Untought

We went to KL Central and waiting the other members from IIUM and UM there.

We sat down at a corner where there were four Gintel massage chairs. With a RM1 note, we relieved our body for 3 minutes.

It was so relaxing and sometimes I forgot we were waiting the others because of it.

The atmosphere in the KL Central was so busy as it is. People were there and here, chatting and talking either with phones nor friends. The weather was clear and hot, made some of us sweat.

My other friends still not appeared. I suddenly thinking of getting a book. I entered a book shop nearby, but sadly I suddenly lost my interest to read. I walked out slowly to a chair where Amir, Nizar, Fahmi and Faris were. Before I had my sit, suddenly I had a feeling to look back at the book shop. Written there was "It Is Better to be Unborn Then to Live Untought"

One Day in A Morning

A fan "swooshing". Cold wet air from outside blew into my room.

My friend is still with his dream. In this morning, I am going for my first class.

Hopefully I am not sleepy during the lecture.

Can someone help me?

Help to improve my study.

Help to maintain humble throughout everything.

Help to be a better man.

I Need Space

I was walking along a corridor searching for my class. I found it.

It looks 'new' like no one was using it before. The furniture are in good condition.

There was nothing came out of my mind when thinking about these facilities except,

I just kept thinking to do my best through-out this semester.

Yaaa, everyone will say they want to get 4 pointer in their 1st semester.

The same goes to me. I will struggle hard, do my best, put aside my "garden in the heart".

I will strike for 4 pointer by the end of this semester.

Hopefully, it goes as it is planned and "I Need Space"

View From A Window

The clear blue sky turn up dark. Lightning clearly seen.

It is 4.24pm, the atmosphere is "dull".

I am alone in my house in Kolej Angsana A4. Maybe the others are outing.

From a window, I can see a green hill that chill out my mind. In front of it, there is my purple-painted class building. It looks like a skyscraper in this area.

There is also a Health Unit building built on a green grassy field. The building looks like a bungalow house. I have never been there before, but maybe someday I will.

There is nothing so special here. I am not complaining.

I just want to say that, no matter where we are, study is a must.

I get my new inspiration just by get a "View From A Window".

I hope it is beneficial.